As a clueless young petite woman on a journey to find out who she is, it felt like it was high school all over again. The first year of high school is the adjustment phase, the journey is like going to school on the first day full of mixed emotions nervousness, uneasiness, and excited. Like most teenagers, for me high school is trying to find the right crowd to hang out with, battling with hormonal problems, while solving algebra and trigonometry, basically, the journey is learning how to fit in and look normal like everyone else, l was an invisible teenager.
The most difficult thing in life is to know yourself
As much as possible l avoided getting into trouble and the strange gaze coming from everyone for being a petite woman little did I know, life doesn’t work out that way. The challenges I had faced brought out the best and worst in me, I’ve gone through bullying and made it out alive, fortunately, I wasn’t on a brick of committing suicide. A person who had experienced being bullied will suffer from depression and anxiety, low self-esteem and loneliness which may cause them to think that the only way to end their pain is to commit suicide. Being bullied, underestimated, discriminated and the outcast will make the person feel worthless. I felt worthless, but most of all I was beginning to lose hope. I thought to myself I can’t give up now. I have only myself. It was a difficult phase, I can’t scream for help and all I can do is cry alone in the corner. Going to school every day is a constant battle knowing that I will come face to face with the bully.
It all begins and ends with your mind. What you give power to has power over you, if you allow it
I made a mistake I let the bullies mean words corrupt my mind then, something clicked. I realized that the battle wasn’t happening outside It was a battle inside me, the mindset. The words didn’t mean anything unless I give meaning to it, funny how life works, the more you run away from your problems the more it will come back to you. So, I confronted the guy who made me feel worthless and a nobody I asked him Why do you keep on hurting me? Instead, I should be asking myself Why are you letting them hurt you? Do you love yourself? Are you worthy of love?. Since then, I began to question myself Who am I? What’s my purpose? What’s my legacy. For the first time, I had hopes.
The Turning Point
The experience of being bullied made me become a better person, it made me appreciate and love myself. The answer is not to take on revenge rather it is to move on with my life and forgive the ones who have hurt me. I started my soul searching journey, visualizing what I want to do and who I want to be, I dedicated my time to watch successful people Oprah Winfrey, Jim Rohn, and Steve Jobs, I focused my energy on watching motivational videos and podcasts, I trained my mind to block the negative opinions of others and remind myself who I am, I listened to the voice inside me saying Don’t give up, I am stronger than my battle and I followed that voice.
Your life has a purpose. Your story is important. Your dreams count. Your voice matters. You were born to make an impact
I used to ask Why me? Now the question is What can I do? I started wondering how can I make an impact to someone’s else life, how can I be of service to others, how can I be a great influence to someone who went through the same experience like me. No one should experience being bullied, discriminated, underestimated, outcast, and ashamed of who they are, I want to leave a legacy where someone will look up to me and tell me Because of you I didn’t give up.
Where am I now? Now I have my own blog where I can inspire and touch people’s hearts. It doesn’t matter if not everyone will read my blog as long as I get to touch one person’s heart, I think every one of us has the battle to deal, each of us has a story to tell and the power to change someone’s life.
I ask you now What is the purpose of your struggle? Is it to make you feel weak, undesirable, and hopeless or Is it to make you strong, empowered and courageous? turn your scars into strengths. You may ask, what do you get from this, well if there is something I want you to remember is that you have to be that somebody others will look up to and because he/she didn’t give up. You have to be the light to someone’s darkness, maybe you have experienced this or you are going through it right now I want you to know that you matter and you are worthy of being loved, don’t be hard on yourself keep going no matter what happens, find your own legacy. Do me a favor put a smile to someone’s face today and make she/he feel is worth it.